you stole my heart, right from the start
.Multiply it by infinity, take it to the depths of forever and you'll still only have a glimpse of how much I love you
we're on a mission to last forever.
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`why is it, the moment you turn around to leave, it seems like you've forgotten my heart is on your sleeve...
Known as Juliee
18 years young
she smells of Princess by Vera Wang
She loves shoes, friends, anything sweet, and absolutely adores her hubby Allen
She's scared of people leaving her
She's learning to love herself.
she's trying to believe that she's lovely on the inside.
and thats her story<33
Him & her<3
I love you<3
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Julie loves Allen <3
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
``i still love you, even more so than before, I won't let you go.<3
Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 3:44 PM
"Keep on telling me you don't know how to leave him
He just keeps playing with your heart girl you don't need him"
-knight in shining armour `` Lee Carr
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After reading several people’s blog, I came to notice, that it’s mostly always us girls that have to go through shit to get to the one we like, love or cherish, and it’s always us girls who chooses to sit through all the pain until we actually really get ourselves up and move on.
However, sometimes, as much as we want to forgive, forget and finally move on, we just can’t bring ourselves to do it. I couldn’t help but wonder why? Why has god—or who ever it is that created us, or whatever it was that we evolved from—made us women, girls, chicks etc—unequal? You see it all the time, it’s always us that puts up with most of the pain whether it’s childbirth, period pain or emotional pain.
Not only that, but we even get treated unequal with certain double standards and such, sometimes men get treated worse than us women do—that’s correct-- but that’s nothing compared to what we put with, whether it’s the past, the present, or even the future.
I wonder why, it’s my girls, my lovely bunch of friends who go through all this shit, that sometimes may not even be worth it? Why can’t we let go and move on like so many other people do? Is it because we love that person more than anyone else, is it because we made them turn into our lives.
And why is it that it seems our effort is never enough to take us through the whole journey of love, life & destiny? Another question is—why is it that sometimes their effort is incomparable to ours.
In a sustained relationship that has lasted for a long time, or so it seems to us, I really do wonder who really sacrifices the most, and if so, why isn’t there a balance in the number of sacrifices?
I’m not saying it’s only us girls in the whole world that suffers like this or goes through this, I understand there are many boys, guys and men out there too, but if the statistics-if there are any- are compared I bet you that it’s us women who go through the counseling , the pain and the excruciating pain of loving someone so unattainable or someone that just somehow not enough to feed our hunger of what we want, whether it’s love, lust or even friendship.
BUT, there is sometime, where someone somewhere, will fall in love, get married and have the happiest times of their lives even after all of their tough times together. I’m hoping to achieve my new goal—for me & him, to get through our tough times, rough patches whatever you may want to call it- no matter how hard or how much effort it'll take to get through it and to succeed in our lives together whilst staying in love and loving each other unconditionally.
Or at least love each other just as much each and everyday – which counts as a closer step to the future, the future that I hope to be in our hands, just for us to control.
And who knows… maybe someday, we’ll be on our way to our honeymoon, laughing at all the times we thought we were going to break up and go our separate ways, or the times that we made each other cry.
And it’s just a matter time that you’ll get that feeling— the feeling that assures you every thing’s going to be okay as long as you try your best. As Shirley said—there are bigger things than our own “little” problems.
love always, juliee<3
Labels: love and lyrics
``how could someone make me so sad, but still i only want them to stay...<3
Sunday, December 21, 2008 @ 10:28 AM
I really hope that little impudent annoying two-faced bitch is reading this.
Let’s see, where shall I start?
1. People (indicating ******) should really back off after already ruining a relationship once.
2. They should already be getting the fucking message to back off already.
3. Show their true self, instead of acting all innocent.
4. Yeah, don’t be a two-faced, scheming bitch at least show it.
5. Messing with one relationship is bad enough, so stop messing around
6. Don’t call OTHER people’s boyfriends out.
7. Don’t FLIRT with them.
8. Stop telling them to stay out late with you
9. People like you are a fucking nightmare
10. And most of all don’t mess with their girlfriends! We can see through all your scheming little ideas.
OH yeh did I mention, I hate you to death, and the only reason you’re still alive is because you’re my boyfriend’s friend, and that I HAVE to be nice to you. Yeh I hate YOUR guts.
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Now that I’m done raging, let me get to the point…
I am sick and tired of being stuck in this problem, but it’s not my fault, that she pops up in the worst times ever. I could forget her, if she ceases to exist. Frankly, I really don’t need her existing in my life. Nor, do I need her existing in my boyfriend’s life, but maybe as some people say, I’m just being too nice like always.
When a girl, comes into your world, stealing the most precious thing from you, are you meant to just sit there and watch the things she does, which your boyfriend can clearly not see. When she’s the one kind of being that your boyfriend is meant to hate, but instead of hating her, he likes her, are you meant to not feel uneasy? Not only that, but your boyfriend actually makes you meet her with him, spending over an hour with her just cause she has nothing else to do. Not to mention, she also calls him out every now and then, which actually has cut down from everyday or night as I may say. Are you really meant to hold yourself back, and be nice to her as he wishes you to do so? Doesn’t that mean your just letting her get away with everything she does? In addition, it seems as though she is important to him and it doesn’t help, that he has actually liked her more so than a friend at one stage in your relationship, and despite, her already nearly ruining your relationship once, your boyfriend still meets her while knowing that you really detest her guts.
Honestly how would you feel, if you were working your ass off to go through a rough patch, thinking you can get through it with him again, like always, only to find out that he likes another girl? Wouldn’t that been a deep thorn in your side, a scar in your heart? But, how can you let go, if he’s the one thing holding you together? How can you forget all that, if it’s deeply hurt you before? How can you erase all the insecurities that you have inside your heart?
A friend of mine once said that, I am brave and strong for keeping up with all this, to just take all the pain so he can be happy. But I wonder how much longer I can keep this bravery up. ‘Cause frankly, I don’t like sharing someone who’s meant to be mine, and mine only? If he says that he’s entirely yours, you expect him to be ENTIRELY yours. But, there are some limitations to “ you’re all mine” or “ I’m all yours”, as long a you can see CLEARLY that they’re just friends and not flirting-mucking-around-spend-the-night-with-them-once-a-week- friends and definitely not when she always call him out to meet her.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying he can’t have friends, of course he can. Just it’d be better if he didn’t have friend like her, especially, when he already hates people who are like her.
I love him- I’m not that mean to take her away from him if he wishes for her to stay in his life, but, I just don’t know how much longer I can control my feelings. I want to breakdown; I want to scream, to hit a wall, do something other than watch her do this to me all over again or watch her do the things i hate her doing. Why does she have to come back? Has she had enough fun messing with other people’s relationships?
Maybe, I’m just over-thinking. Maybe I’m wrong. But I just simply don’t like her as a person, and what she does… because I’ve experienced, the pain that was particularly all her fault. And even if he asks me to take it out on him, I can’t—because I want to take it out on her, but with him saying take it out on him instead of saying go ahead and hit her, assuring me that he won’t be angry if I did… it’s like he’s protecting her.
If he’s strong enough to protect her, what about me? Shouldn’t he have protected me from feeling all this pain…?
<3juliee
Labels: rage and a half
``why is it, the moment you turn around to leave, it seems like you've forgotten my heart is on your sleeve...
I guess, these days i really still don't know...
what goes through his mind.
And, sometimes it hurts to think that he's having fun without me.
to think that he can smile better without me.
to think that, if i was there it wouldn't even make a diffrence.
i wodner why these kind of thoughts are still in my head,
causing this feeling of insecurity.
Even though, i usually...let go after finding out abotut hese kind of feelings,
i just can't seem to bring myself to.
And even though, the one time i really used all my strength to at least motion to him,
that we should not be together any longer, he refused my request.
the request that it ook all my strength to ask...or you could say motion.
That prove show much he loves me, but what if it's not enough...?
not enough to cure and ease these insecurities, this pain?
And even, if friends are there, why is it always that one person to make me feel truly complete.
Why does it have to be a boy, why couldn't it be a friend, just a friend who could be relied on?
At soem point, i began to wonder...
Why did i ever fall in love, when, and mostly how...?
how did i manage to get myself stuck in this situation?
And why, do i always try to cope with all the pain within me by myself?
whilst copping all the things that he gets angry at me for.
Maybe i deserve this? did i do something wrong in my past life?
But, most of all, Why and how do i manage to stay trapped in this dilemma?
I love him more than words could express, but i wonder how much more i can take before i eventually break, yet again, like always.
Sometimes i just think, someone is just testing how strong my love is for him?
i wonder if people will think it's strong enough to keep me going....
because, i definitely believe that the love i have for him, is stronger than anything else that i have ever felt.
love, juliee<3>
BTW...=O
I badly sprained my ankle and is currently on crutches T_______T" how gay...
but dw! that flovely someone is taking care of me as always, even if he does get angry at me, so i'm a recover in no time lahs =)
toodles! =)
As days go by, it gets harder to move on,
as i keep falling deeper and deeper in love with that one person.
Even though, we go through ups and downs...
and even though he makes my heartache, makes me cry,
and makes me feel the excruciating pain of loving someone to an extent that they're you're life...
and that you'd give anything up for them.
I never knew that this love existed... during all my past relationships,
i always thought that true love doesn't exist, that forever could never be believed in, and eternity was a word that was fake.Ithought everything was lies, so i lied too.
However, as i said, as days go by, i'm falling deeper and deeper in love.
and it's hard to stop. Like a drug, so addicting despite the pain, cuz i'm numb to the pain as if i'm high.
But why is it, that when i do feel that pain, i can't escape...
and it's so hard to speak, so hard to voice out my feelings...
And so hard to look at him.
But it's also hard to lie to myself..
and convince myself that everything's okay,
to just smile at him and tell him to " just go..."
when i just want to say, "why can't you stay..?"
To me nothing could ever can ever compare to this love.
This excruciating pain, yet this overflowing Joy...
And the laughs & smiles we get form being with each other.
And nothing can ever compare to these crystal clear memories we make.
And as much as i tell myself i hate him, i know i could never voice it out,
because that would be a lie, a lie that could kill me & him.
And even though, i'm home alone, when he's out and about...
i know he loves me just as much as i love him,
'cause despite everything i've done to him,
he's still with me... holding my hand through each bad and good.
And leading me the way each and everytime i get off track.
And even though, i don't deserve him, he's holding me closer each time i try to move away.
And thats when i know that he's the one that completes me...
It was inevitable-i guess i was bound to experience all this with him.
You complete me lyrics extract``Keyshia Cole
im givin all my life and all my love
..if you.. promise me youll be here forever
ill give you me ill give you everything
if you promise me youll never leave me
what my friends say dont matter
youll be right here from the start
& ill get on my knees
i'll give you all of me
youll never leave my side
because
you love me
you complete me
you hold my heart in your hands
and its okay cause i trust that you'll
be the best man that you can
baby you love me.. oh yes you do.. yea..
and no matter what they ever say about you
im gonna stay by your side
promise me no matter what they say about me that ...
youre gon' be here til the end of time
cause you held me down when no body was around
and gave me all the love i need
so give me more dont you ever leave
cause you complete me
i know..
you love me
you complete me
you hold my heart in your hands
and its okay cause i trust that
you'll be the best man that you can
cause you.. give me my heart back
give me my love back baby
i want it all because its never enough
give me my heart give me
my love back i want it all because
it's never enough
love, juliee<3
Saturday, December 13, 2008 @ 5:28 PM
I guess, these days i really still don't know...
what goes through his mind.
And, sometimes it hurts to think that he's having fun without me.
to think that he can smile better without me.
to think that, if i was there it wouldn't even make a diffrence.
i wodner why these kind of thoughts are still in my head,
causing this feeling of insecurity.
Even though, i usually...let go after finding out abotut hese kind of feelings,
i just can't seem to bring myself to.
And even though, the one time i really used all my strength to at least motion to him,
that we should not be together any longer, he refused my request.
the request that it ook all my strength to ask...or you could say motion.
That prove show much he loves me, but what if it's not enough...?
not enough to cure and ease these insecurities, this pain?
And even, if friends are there, why is it always that one person to make me feel truly complete.
Why does it have to be a boy, why couldn't it be a friend, just a friend who could be relied on?
At soem point, i began to wonder...
Why did i ever fall in love, when, and mostly how...?
how did i manage to get myself stuck in this situation?
And why, do i always try to cope with all the pain within me by myself?
whilst copping all the things that he gets angry at me for.
Maybe i deserve this? did i do something wrong in my past life?
But, most of all, Why and how do i manage to stay trapped in this dilemma?
I love him more than words could express, but i wonder how much more i can take before i eventually break, yet again, like always.
Sometimes i just think, someone is just testing how strong my love is for him?
i wonder if people will think it's strong enough to keep me going....
because, i definitely believe that the love i have for him, is stronger than anything else that i have ever felt.
love, juliee<3>
BTW...=O
I badly sprained my ankle and is currently on crutches T_______T" how gay...
but dw! that flovely someone is taking care of me as always, even if he does get angry at me, so i'm a recover in no time lahs =)
toodles! =)
you complete me<3
Monday, December 8, 2008 @ 2:20 PM
As days go by, it gets harder to move on,
as i keep falling deeper and deeper in love with that one person.
Even though, we go through ups and downs...
and even though he makes my heartache, makes me cry,
and makes me feel the excruciating pain of loving someone to an extent that they're you're life...
and that you'd give anything up for them.
I never knew that this love existed... during all my past relationships,
i always thought that true love doesn't exist, that forever could never be believed in, and eternity was a word that was fake.Ithought everything was lies, so i lied too.
However, as i said, as days go by, i'm falling deeper and deeper in love.
and it's hard to stop. Like a drug, so addicting despite the pain, cuz i'm numb to the pain as if i'm high.
But why is it, that when i do feel that pain, i can't escape...
and it's so hard to speak, so hard to voice out my feelings...
And so hard to look at him.
But it's also hard to lie to myself..
and convince myself that everything's okay,
to just smile at him and tell him to " just go..."
when i just want to say, "why can't you stay..?"
To me nothing could ever can ever compare to this love.
This excruciating pain, yet this overflowing Joy...
And the laughs & smiles we get form being with each other.
And nothing can ever compare to these crystal clear memories we make.
And as much as i tell myself i hate him, i know i could never voice it out,
because that would be a lie, a lie that could kill me & him.
And even though, i'm home alone, when he's out and about...
i know he loves me just as much as i love him,
'cause despite everything i've done to him,
he's still with me... holding my hand through each bad and good.
And leading me the way each and everytime i get off track.
And even though, i don't deserve him, he's holding me closer each time i try to move away.
And thats when i know that he's the one that completes me...
It was inevitable-i guess i was bound to experience all this with him.
You complete me lyrics extract``Keyshia Cole
im givin all my life and all my love
..if you.. promise me youll be here forever
ill give you me ill give you everything
if you promise me youll never leave me
what my friends say dont matter
youll be right here from the start
& ill get on my knees
i'll give you all of me
youll never leave my side
because
you love me
you complete me
you hold my heart in your hands
and its okay cause i trust that you'll
be the best man that you can
baby you love me.. oh yes you do.. yea..
and no matter what they ever say about you
im gonna stay by your side
promise me no matter what they say about me that ...
youre gon' be here til the end of time
cause you held me down when no body was around
and gave me all the love i need
so give me more dont you ever leave
cause you complete me
i know..
you love me
you complete me
you hold my heart in your hands
and its okay cause i trust that
you'll be the best man that you can
cause you.. give me my heart back
give me my love back baby
i want it all because its never enough
give me my heart give me
my love back i want it all because
it's never enough
love, juliee<3
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